“Can She Talk?” Out of the Mouths of Babes…

This past weekend my family went to a birthday party for the daughter of our good friends.  It was all the wonderful things you’d expect when a little gal turns two; balloons, crafts, laughter, Minnie Mouse decor.

Teagan approached the situation the way she normally does when she is unsure of her surroundings – standing back and watching the other children, playing with toys out of the way of the hustle and bustle, and sticking close to her father, sister, or myself.  As much as I would love to see her get in the mix with the other children, she seemed happy – so that was fine with me.

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I felt I hit it out of the park when present opening came – our gift, a six foot crawling tube, was immediately taken out of the box, and all the kiddos scrambled to take turns worming their way through (okay, okay, mother of the birthday girl gave me the idea – Caitlin, you get all the credit).  Teagan wanted to go through, but as we approached the opening, I could tell she was intimidated by the boisterousness of all the other littles rushing in and out.  Even though we didn’t speak, I feel that together she and I decided we’d wait for things to calm down a bit, and then she would take her turn.  In the meantime, there was cake and ice cream to eat!
My daughters got themselves seated at a table with a few other kiddos, and Joel and I helped each of them with their plates.  I can’t even remember now what was happening – I assume I was asking T questions that she wasn’t answering – but whatever it was, it didn’t seem like anything out of the ordinary…to me.  All of a sudden, a voice says, “Can she talk?”
My heart jumped into my throat a bit and my body went a little numb.  I look up from the plate of birthday goodies to the the question asker, a boy of six years or so (I think, I’m really bad at guessing ages), who is observing Teagan with a curious look on his face.  I know this type of question will be a part of my life, but as much I’ve thought about it, it’s still a bit of a shock to hear.  Maybe this will change as time goes on.  It isn’t a shock because I mind the question, but because I don’t know exactly how to answer it.
Because at home, T is quite noisy.  And often times she says things that maybe not everyone would be able to understand, but I know what she is saying.  Her speech pathologist recently did an assessment of her progress, and she is a year and a half or so behind where she should be.  This might be a surprise, but I’m actually quite happy about this…for a while I didn’t think she’d ever talk at all!  And besides all that, when you’re dealing with a disability that is so rare, how deep do you go with your explanation – no matter what the age of the questioner?
“Can she talk?”
I look from the curious young man to my sweet daughter and answer: “A little bit.”  He shifts his curious gaze from Teagan to myself, and says “Why just a little bit?”  “Because,” I say, “Sometimes people learn to talk at different ages.”
“Oh!”  He says, “Like Ella at my school!” And goes back to his own plate of cake.
Simple as that.
I know it won’t always be that easy.  I know kids won’t always be that kind.  But for this little dude, an answer was all he wanted, and then he was happy to move on.
And thanks to him, I get to put a check next to “Answering Questions I Don’t Know How To Answer” on my list of things I’m nervous about for the future.
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Vegetable Packed Meatloaf and Sides

Like many parents I know, I’m constantly trying to figure out a way to get more veggies into my kiddos – I like to call my mission “The Great Veggie Sneak.”  This meal was a hit.


It had all these veggies in it!  That’s celery, green pepper, onion, cauliflower, and sweet potatoes!

For the meatloaf (includes celery, green pepper, onion) I used a recipe off of BeachBody.com (although I didn’t use low fat turkey because my kids need some cals). I love it not only because it is protein and veggies, it’s also one of those “throw them all together in a pan” recipes.  AND MY KIDS GOBBLED IT UP!!!


For the cauliflower, I used this recipe – it’s super simple, with only 2 ingredients that aren’t in most kitchens anyway.


And lastly, the sweet potato fries, which the whole crew loves…and it’s a treat I can feel good about feeding to my family.  Not counting the sweet potatoes, again, all ingredients are probably in your kitchen right now.



You’ll notice that all three of these recipes require different temperatures – I did all of them at 375 degrees, just cooked the fries and meatloaf for 40 mins and the cauliflower for 50 (so the fries a bit longer than the recipe lists, the meatloaf and cauliflower a bit shorter).

Viola!  Veggies they enjoy.  Mom gets a pat on the back 🙂

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The Day I Called Someone on using the “R-word”

I’m a bit insecure about this post.  I don’t like sounding preachy, and as I think about what is coming, I don’t think there is any way for me not to.  So thank you for bearing with me; I appreciate you putting up with a little bit of preach.

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Source: http://www.lionheartinnovations.com/tag/retard/

I used to use the word “retarded” as part of, I guess, slang.  That stopped abruptly when I had a child with special needs.  I’ve had others around me use it since then; they catch themselves, apologize, it’s awkward for two seconds, and we move on. I’ve seen people I’m friends with on social platforms use it, and depending on my relationship with them, I might reach out and say “hey heads up, maybe a different word.” One day just before Christmas I had an experience that was different.  This time, it was someone who didn’t know my situation.  It was the woman who cuts my hair.

It was the day after the Ms. Universe debacle. We were discussing how horrible the members of that situation must feel, and laughing because it actually got people talking about the Ms. Universe pageant again.  We were chatting happily when this phrase came out of her mouth: “her answer didn’t make any sense and I thought she sounded retarded.”

My heart jumped the way it does every time I hear this word.  My mind went into an internal civil war…

Do I call her on it?  I know she wasn’t trying to offend me.  

That doesn’t make it right.  Use of that word is hurtful.

But it’s going to make her feel bad!  And besides, she didn’t “mean it.”

Maybe she’ll use that word around someone impressionable and
they’ll start using it too.  I’d better tell her.

I don’t like the use of that word.  So why the internal back and forth? Because, I get it.  Many people who use this word don’t mean to be harmful.  Most don’t give a second thought to what it really means.  Because what it really means, isn’t an insult.  It’s a diagnosis (and actually not used that often anymore)…and the way that term is used in diagnosis is not the same as the way it’s used in slang.

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Source: http://mic.com/articles/85615/when-is-it-okay-to-say-retard-check-this-chart#.5CIzwt0P5z

But unfortunately, some people make fun of those with disabilities in really mean ways.  Sometimes because they’re mean people, and sometimes because they don’t understand how cruel their actions are. Kids go through the McDonald’s drive-thu impersonating someone who can’t talk quite normally.  A group of friends call guys they know and pretend to be a special needs person asking them on a date. I was witness to – and laughed at – both these situations in my younger days.  Now I ask myself, what if one of those guys had a sibling with special needs?  What if the person working at that drive-thru WAS a person with special needs? These memories haunt me now. At the time, I just thought it was funny.

I know most people don’t actually mean “a person with cognitive delay” when they use the word retard.  But if we don’t tell them, how will they ever know they’re causing pain?  So I decided to screw the very Minnesotan fear of bringing up an uncomfortable subject – I mustered my courage and spoke.

“Can I tell you something, and I don’t want you to feel bad?”
“Yes, of course!” Her body language changed; she straightened up, took her eyes off my hair and made direct eye contact with me in the mirror.
“I have a special needs child.”
“The r-word.”
“OH!”  Her hand snapped up to her mouth, her eyes wide. “OH, I’m so sorry!!  I didn’t even think about what I was saying!”

We recovered from a few moments of awkwardness and continued about our business.  We had a brief Merry Christmas hug goodbye and I went back to work, hoping she wasn’t being too hard on herself, but happy that I’d spoken up.

The next day, I received a text from her.  “Hey Kathleen!  I know you said it wasn’t a big deal but I wanted to apologize again for what I said yesterday.  I’m so glad you said something because it really made me think about it and be aware of the effects.  Thank you and again I’m sorry.”

That she was texting me 24 hours later told me she was still thinking about it – and while the whole reason I spoke up was because I want people to realize what this word means, I didn’t want her to dwell on it.  I responded immediately, telling her how much I appreciated how thoughtful she was about it, and that I thought she was a lovely person. Which I do.

So the next time you hear the r-word (or, for that matter, any other pejorative once used to describe a person), catch yourself. Think of me and my stylist friend.  Yes, you and I both may have grown up thinking that word was cool or ok to use.  We also thought that rolled jeans and Zima were cool.   Now we know better.

(Thanks for your help Laura :-))

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The Things Teagan Taught Us

When I wrote about the cookies, my friend Becky commented on how Teagan has opened her and her family’s eyes and hearts.  It got me thinking about everything I’ve learned being a special needs parent that I wouldn’t have otherwise.  I could talk all day about these lessons – but thought it would be more fun to hear from people with differing levels of association with special needs families.  So I did some asking around – here are a few of my favorites.

The question: what has having someone with special needs in your life opened your eyes to or made you realize that you hadn’t before?

“It has made me grateful for the little things; things you would just expect a child to do can really be milestones.”                   – Maryellyn, Grandma

“Before I knew Teagan, I naively thought of a special needs child being completely different from a typical child, and I think a lot of people think that way.  I’ve realized she has a very similar personality, likes/dislikes, attitude, etc. as my own kids.  ”                                      – Morgan, neighbor

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“I’ve learned that parents of kids with special needs still like to talk about every day kid stuff.…when to switch beds, potty training trials, how to overcome picky eating, etc.  In other words, kids with special needs are, well, kids.”                                                                            – Laura, friend

“I’m not that important.  Sometimes at the grocery store the baggers are men and women with special needs.  I used to get frustrated having to wait for them to bag my groceries. But you know what?  My life is not so busy or important that I can’t take that time to chat with them or ask them how they are doing.  Maybe it will make the people who love them so happy that someone took the time to say hi.  Maybe it will make their day.  It actually makes mine.”                                                  – Tracie, friend

“I appreciate life so much more and see that people with disabilities can really be angels on this earth showing us the true meaning of life, if we let them! Acceptance, love, community,strength and faith…  these things matter!  Not whether you buy a house, it’s size, your car, your job, your weight, your looks.  If you can see past all that, you can know real love, experience true friendships, the simple joys in life.  We should look to those who accept their challenges head on, or are different than everyone else, as inspiration to be more like them!!”                – Lisa, friend

“I want to help and have so many questions, but sometimes the biggest help I can be is to be a friend and not ask them.  Because sometimes the parents need a break from it.”           – DeAnn, a friend who is also an educator

“So many kids with special needs are incredibly happy and at the end of the day, they want to love and be loved, the same way all people do.  We get lost in material items or even accomplishments sometimes, thinking “If I just had that one thing…” or “If I could just do this…I’d be happy…” But I think my time with kids with varying learning needs has taught me that they love and want to be loved just like anyone else and can be extremely happy.”                 – Amy, friend, cousin by marriage, also an educator

“In the past I was ignorant in the use of words.  Not realizing that they can be hurtful when used incorrectly.  Also, I now give special needs teachers and families so much respect for the work and care that they give; I see how much work is involved in each goal and accomplishment.”  – Jason, neighbor

“Kids don’t make the rigid judgements we do.  There are children of varying skill levels in my daughter Maddy’s class.  I’ve tried to encourage her to be accepting, and even more so to appreciate the things that come naturally to her.”                                                                                  – Becky, friend

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“I’ve learned not to place limits on anyone. I have an Uncle who has special needs. Troy can be sneaky to get some things he wants – obviously not always a good thing – but it taught me he is a lot smarter than we sometimes give him credit for. I’ve also learned to SMILE. I don’t know what it is, but when Troy smiles big, everyone smiles! I’m not sure if it is because he is a pure soul or that he exudes so much happiness when he smiles.”                                                                        – Tiff, neighbor

And the one I’ll leave on comes from Uncle Jeff (my brother).  He said “I have to admit, I never really thought there’d be someone in my family with special needs so it was something I never really thought about, but then it happened.”  Word.  One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is that it (whatever “it” is) CAN happen to you.  So be kind.  Shove it all in there – your heart has room.

He also said “I love my little Teags very much”  – I agree with him on that point too 🙂

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Special Needs Parenting: Explaining My Child to Yours

So that one time, when it took me a whole year to respond to a question…

A good friend asked me this question last October.  When she asked, I was really excited to give a profound, eloquent answer.  An answer that would open peoples’ minds.  An answer that would make lives better for kids with special needs.

Problem was, I didn’t have one.  Because it’s a really tough question.

“What do you want me to tell my child about yours?”

Oy.  How do you explain to children that everyone is different, and some are even more different?  How do you illustrate empathy?  How do you teach that just because something is unfamiliar to you, it doesn’t mean it’s scary or something to make fun of – a concept some adults have trouble accepting?

After a lot of thought, I’ve boiled it down to something I think kids can understand.  It’s a subject everyone likes, and as it’s December 7th, it’s timely:


Cookies, and the recipes used to make these wonderful treats.


There are recipes for all different kinds of cookies.  Sugar cookies, chocolate chip cookies, some with M&Ms, some that taste like gingerbread.  Cookies with hershey’s kisses, cookies with sprinkles, and even cookies that have frosting.  Raisin cookies, giant cookies, cookies in sandwich form.  Heck, some cookies even look like a brownie!  There are more cookies and cookie recipes than you could possibly list – but at the end of the meal, when you get right down to it, they are all still cookies.

People are kind of like cookies.  We are all different, and we are all made from a recipe that tells us what we will be – except instead of “chocolate with coconut,” our recipe calls for brown hair and blue eyes.  Or maybe an ingredient that is a little more extreme – like not growing as tall as everyone else.  Or not being able to learn as fast, or being able to talk the way everyone else does.   It all goes back to the recipe.  We don’t know why some recipes have ingredients that aren’t the same as others, but that’s okay – while I love me some oatmeal raisin, what a boring world it would be if that was the only cookie there was.

Now here is the part I can’t equate to cookies…teaching children to accept those who are different.  Some children are more nurturing than others – I’ve seen it.  They are perhaps more willing to be patient, or even enjoy being the special helper.  And some kids are just busy being kids, and that’s fine too.  But what I hope everyone teaches their children, is that everyone wants to be included, and everyone wants to be accepted.

That is a subject for another day.  Hmmm, I’m thinking…maybe something about pies.

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Special Needs Parenting: And Harry Potter

Having a child with special needs opens your eyes to a lot of things you might not have noticed otherwise.  This post is about different types of people I’ve been lucky enough to cross paths with – some I never would have known, and some whom were there all along – equated to Harry Potter characters (because, why not?).

Mrs. Weasley
Mrs. Weasley is a WORRIER.  She is forever concerned about your mental state, your safety, and if you’re eating enough.  At times it can be a bit overbearing – there is a chance when you told a Mrs. Weasley about your child’s diagnosis, she cried more than you did.  But it all comes from a place of love.  Mrs. Weasley will ALWAYS be there for you.

Molly Weasley

Sirius Black
This person is a blast from the past, someone you never had any idea would be a part of your life again.  And then suddenly, although you haven’t spoken since high school, they are popping up through the fireplace (okay, maybe on Facebook) to tell you how much they are rooting for your family.  And WOW does it feel good to know they are in your corner.
The researcher.  No time for moping about, there is work to do!  This is the friend who is sending you information on everything they can find on your child’s condition, therapies and resources.  When you’re so overwhelmed you’re not sure what to do next, rely on your Hermiones.
Gilderoy Lockhart (before we realized he’s awful)
Ah, Gilderoy Lockhart, always smiling and never quite grasping the seriousness of the situation.  The friend who keeps saying “but she’ll be okay, right?” Gilderoy Lockharts aren’t too bad to have around – sometimes they make you feel that a rare chromosomal diagnosis is no harder to deal with than a cage full of cornish pixies!
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I’ve run into a lot of wise people over the last three years, but the wisest of the wise I hereby dub Dumbledores.  Always there with a calm demeanor and steady advice when you’ve been entered into a tournament you are far too inexperienced to play in.  The therapists and doctors who make you want to crawl onto their laps and cry like a baby because they are actually helping you when it seems like no one could…but you won’t, because you’re far too tough for that.
Cornelius Fudge
Striving to be a Dumbledore, the Cornelius Fudges are the professionals whose leadership never seems to be right for you.  They have good intentions, but at the end of the day, the ministry has to let them go (the ministry = you).
George Weasley
The George Weasleys of the world are obviously the jokers! People who are able to make you laugh about this crazy situation.  An example of my George Weasley – one day I was throwing myself a pity party, talking with two friends about how much harder it was for me to be a parent than for the majority of my peers.  George Weasley said to me, with a completely straight face, “I’m pretty sure I have a more difficult life than you.”  I stared at her, incredulous…and then she burst out laughing.  And I did too.  Not all people could have gotten away with a joke like that, but with a George Weasley, somehow it’s okay.
The Grey Lady
This is one of the sadder characters on our list.  Grey ladies are ghosts.  They’re almost impossible to find.  When you get your diagnosis, somewhere in the back of your mind exists this list of people who you think you will rely on.  Grey Ladies are on this list, and then poof, they are gone faster than a ghost through a Hogwarts wall.  Don’t let Grey Ladies get you down, they exist in all walks of life. This just happens to be the one you are on.
Ron Weasley
Your steady.  The one who knows when to listen to you vent, when to talk parenting with you, and when all you need is someone to sit calmly by you in a train compartment while you eat your feelings.  Treat your Rons to a chocolate frog every now and then – even though they’d never ask for one.
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Cedric Diggory (before his untimely demise)
Cedric Diggorys are a little bit older, a little bit more experienced, and a LOT bit amazing.  Cedric Diggorys are other special needs parents.  People whose children are in their teens, who are smart and inspiring, and you aspire to be like them – because you are sure they can do anything.
The Mirror of Erised
Granted this is not a person, but it applies.  You could spend your life thinking about what could have been.  And miss the wonderful things in the life you have.  As THE Dumbledore says “It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live.”
That was fun!  Anyone I missed?  Now…how can I make a post combining special needs parenting and all ten seasons of FRIENDS (I kid, I kid…or do I???).
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Mrs. Weasley gif courtesy of http://gifhuntmaker.tumblr.com/post/129169627289/julie-walters-on-harry-potter
Dumbledore gif courtesy of http://lifeandliesofanawkwardfangirl.tumblr.com/post/128535300135/a-few-of-my-favorite-dumbledore-quotes

Special Needs Parenting: How I Feel When You Brag About Your Kids

I recently asked friends and blog readers if they’d be comfortable sharing some questions they had for someone in my situation, but might be a bit uncomfortable asking.  The question that was by far the most asked, comes from a very kind place – and actually wasn’t one I had expected:

“When I talk about the successes of my (typically developing) child, do you wish I’d stop?  Does it get to be too much?”

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My girls with the kiddos of some of my besties.

To put it very simply: no.

I might get a little jealous sometimes. There is no denying that. But I would be far sadder to find out that you weren’t sharing the joys of raising littles with be because you were worried about making me feel that my family wasn’t up to par.  I too am very proud of my daughter(s) and like to brag about their achievements. And besides, I love your kids.

Okay, maybe I don’t even know your kids – but if you are a friend of mine, I immediately care about them and want them to do well by association. If you aren’t a friend of mine, I still care about and want your child to be successful, because children are awesome. Children are sweet and innocent until the rest of the world gets a hold of them. Children are a product of the environment we create for them.  Not to get all Whitney Houston on you, but children are the future.  We live in a world where people do a lot of really awful things to each other, and the only way to escape this is to raise human beings who are kinder and wiser than ourselves.

This question is tough, because the answer might be very different based on the child, on the parent, on the family’s position along the journey toward acceptance.  It even arises among those in the special needs community – I have been in meetings with other parents before, to look across the table and realize I’m venting about my daughter’s slow speech progress to someone who has never heard their child utter a single word.  We all have different struggles.  My advice is to know your audience – if they aren’t the open book type, pay attention to their reactions and it will probably be pretty clear whether or not they want to hear more.  If they are a close friend, just ask – I can only speak for myself.

So please keep sharing stories of your child’s successes with me – I want to hear how they are saying full sentences at one and a half and how they were potty trained in one weekend. I hope your child loves to learn.  I hope your child is caring.  I hope your child is happy and considerate and open minded and accepting of other people.  And I hope they are so smart that they change the world.  Who knows – maybe they’ll even figure out a cure for trisomies.

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Fun at the park with friends.

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What are the Uncomfortable Questions?

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I have a neighbor who thinks everyone is on this earth for a specific reason. While I’m not sure I agree, I do appreciate her outlook  – and that she was willing to tell me what my reason was 😉 My blog. 

It used to be a lot easier for me to write. My emotions were totally out of check, and writing gave me a way to deal with them. I’m thankful I don’t feel as lost as I used to, and want to use RockingLion as a platform for broader conversations about living with special needs (although I’m sure there will still be the occasional emotion-riden post ;-)). Why do I want to do this? Because people are afraid of things they don’t understand. So if I talk about my family’s special condition, how our life is a little different, then maybe people will understand a little bit more. Maybe they won’t be afraid. Maybe the next time they’re at the playground and see a child who is a little bit different, they’ll think “I bet that kid is like Teagan – I bet they like to play and make new friends.”

Okay, so to get to the point: I’d like to know what people want to know about. What are the questions you have but are uncomfortable asking. I’d love it if you’re willing to share!! Comment, or send me a private message via fb if that feels more comfortable. I’ve never been insulted by a question – assumptions, yes, but never a question.

In my attempt to get reenergized about blogging, I’ve asked a few of my besties the question I just asked you. A few examples they’ve given, that I’m excited to write about at some point:

  • When I talk about the successes of my typically developing child, do you wish I’d stop?  Does it get to be too much?
  • How do you want me to talk to my child about yours?
  • Do you like people asking about how therapy is going and where she is on her disabilities?

Have any to add? If so, I’d love to hear from you!

Elphaba, Attitude and a Glass of Water.

“Something has changed within me…something is not the same.”

Okay okay, enough Elphaba – we’re not here to to quote musicals (although that sounds like a fun blog post, amiright?!?).  I have been feeling a change lately.  I’m sure it will be ever evolving, and that I will experience changes like this in good and bad ways for the rest of my life – but just for now, at this minute, I’m pretty happy about it.

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The change is about anger.  When I guest posted on DivineintheDaily.com for the “Special Mamas” series about being mother to a child with a rare genetic disability, my post was riddled with anger and doubt.  I’m not sure if writing that piece was a turning point, or if it is just coincidence, but lately I’ve been seeing glimmers of light through The Shadow that has lain over me since Teagan’s diagnosis.  It is becoming clearer that way I feel about the struggles our family faces is something I have some what of a choice in.  I can’t change her chromosomes, but I can change the attitude I approach the situation with.

I know my life will continue to be an emotional roller coaster, but I’m going to enjoy being at one of the peaks for a while.  When I mentioned these thoughts to my friend Sherry, who has a jr. high aged son with a different rare genetic disability, she shared the story below with me.  If you’re been struggling with anger, frustration, something you can let go of, you might appreciate it too.

A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the “half empty or half full” question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: “How heavy is this glass of water?”

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, “The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it’s not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn’t change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.”

She continued, “The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything.”

Remember to put the glass down.

(original source unknown)

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An Act of Go…oogle

Every now and then, I’ll get a notification from WordPress that someone has commented on my blog.  Most of the time, it is a comment on one breakfast recipe I posted like two years ago (everyone likes it, except for one lady who told me it was a waste of time and money – oops) or else this one on wine and cheese, thanks to Pinterest.  But the comment I want to talk about today was different.

It was from a man named Ruslan who lives in Russia.  His newborn baby daughter had been diagnosed Trisomy 12p, and he was trying to find information.  I’ve mentioned the rarity of Teagan’s diagnosis before, and the lack of easily accessible information – those of you well versed in SEO will know that for my itty bitty blog to show up in search results, there must REALLY not be anything out there.

Anyway – in his comment, Ruslan stated his situation and asked if I would please email him, as he and his wife had been unable to find much information or guidance in Russia.  Surprisingly, although I was thrilled to get his comment, I was nervous about writing back.  I long to bond with other parents in my situation, but now that the opportunity was staring me in the face, I kind of froze.  What do I tell him?  How do I portray the difficult road that is our life, coupled with the joy Teagan brings me every single day?  How do I offer him support from this far away, and when I know nothing about available resources?  What if I can’t help him?

When I did email him back, we shared the stories of our daughters and other children.  We lamented living in places where it snows in April.  Thankfully his English is better than my Russian 😉  My heart went out to him when he mentioned that he and his wife felt they were on their own because they couldn’t find many resources or anyone who could educate them:

“The geneticist whom we approached for consultation couldn’t even give us a hint about this syndrome. He said in his career we were the only family with such syndrome in Russia. And this guy is a super experienced geneticist in one of the best clinics in Russia. I guess we’ll need to be on our own now.”

I remember all too well those first, super difficult days, when no one will give you a straight answer about what is to be.  And when you feel so alone because your teeny tiny baby has some crazy condition called Trisomy 12p and WHAT the hell is that?!  Hard to believe I was first asking myself those questions two and a half years ago.  Feels so far away, yet somehow like only yesterday.

Different countries, similar weather patterns??

Teagan and Ruslan’s daughter have some similarities rooted in their trisomies, and some differences.  They both had a hard time sleeping (even more than what you’d expect from a new baby) and eating, as well as low muscle tone, which leads to issues with basically anything muscle related – delayed rolling, crawling, walking, etc.; this is also the reason for Teagan’s two lazy eye surgeries.  So far Ruslan’s daughter is seizure free – join me in crossing your fingers for them!  They had some success with a massage based therapy, which we heard of back when we were first diagnosed but didn’t try.  They are still in the early phases of tests and scans and discovering what all has been affected.  Luckily, one thing is for sure – they both have parents who are working hard to give them the best life possible.

I told him about Teagan’s history.  How we tried to make up for the low tone with muscle strength through physical therapy.  About epilepsy and organ tests and all the progress she has made.  And mostly, I tried to be supportive – I tried to be the friend I wished I had when I was new to this situation.

When I asked Ruslan if I could share this story on my blog, he pegged my thoughts exactly:

“I don’t mind if you write about us on your blog.  I think people who might have faced similar problems should know that they are not alone in this world and that there are a lot of other stories of real people who are lucky to overcome the challenges you and us have faced.”

Word my friend.  Two and a half years after our diagnosis, our family has finally found a friend who knows how we feel.  They are on the other side of the world and speak a different language.  All it took, was an act of Google.

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